I haven't been blogging lately I KNOW! I've been really busy, well the poem will say it all...
In the universe,
all the hopes, dreams, and fears,
slam down on me,
pulling on pity tears,
Offers, plays,
homework galore,
If that is not enough,
let's add a "little" more,
the sickness of a past,
the sickness from a friend,
drivers ed. therefore maturity,
the good times might end,
will a begin occur,
nobody knows,
there is so much on my plate,
believe me it shows.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Monday, January 23, 2006
My School Life
Today was an interesting day. I got my new classes today. French was awesome!!!...but biology was crappy. The teacher seems suicidal and the whole class we spent reading in the book. Algebra I was ok... Health is the worst because I have only one person I know in the class and the rest I hate! Mostly the class consists of the jocks who are so superficial. After school wasn't any better because I was going to meet Alyssa at her house and we were going to go to Wal Mart for school stuff. She wasn't there and I had to walk in the snow and chase the bus. O well.....people have days.
The dusk
The dawn
The breath
The air
The people
The environment
The hostility
The few good people
The others
The competition
The annoyance
The knowledge
The ajudication
The resentment
The revenge
The envy
The time
The most memorable
The maturity
The lack of...
My school life
The dusk
The dawn
The breath
The air
The people
The environment
The hostility
The few good people
The others
The competition
The annoyance
The knowledge
The ajudication
The resentment
The revenge
The envy
The time
The most memorable
The maturity
The lack of...
My school life
Sunday, January 22, 2006
This Magic
Well yesterday was not as excited as I thought it might be. I didn't end up going to Bean Street and I didn't get much utility at my aunts. Today, I expect the same energy. Great...
You have taught me more,
than I thought I will ever learn,
I learned another outlet,
My pain seems to burn,
I can forget all my troubles,
maybe get a laugh,
I need to have this serenity,
I need it to pass
You have taught me more,
than I thought I will ever learn,
I learned another outlet,
My pain seems to burn,
I can forget all my troubles,
maybe get a laugh,
I need to have this serenity,
I need it to pass
Saturday, January 21, 2006
It Use To Be
I finally finished my Economics course. The final was really hard, but its worth it because it is finally over! I start my new, easier classes on Monday. Today, I might be going to Bean Street, but at 6 I have to go to my aunt's and help her with her computer.
I look towards the sky,
the clouds pale and grey,
it use to be so blue,
when I was with you,
The grass would be green,
the sun caressed my skin,
your brown eyes in my sight,
it would get better that night,
but now your eyes have darkened,
and yourself is drifting away,
I used to bask in your light,
I have lost sight...
I look towards the sky,
the clouds pale and grey,
it use to be so blue,
when I was with you,
The grass would be green,
the sun caressed my skin,
your brown eyes in my sight,
it would get better that night,
but now your eyes have darkened,
and yourself is drifting away,
I used to bask in your light,
I have lost sight...
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Dreams
Tonight, studying for economics exam.
joy...
I see your face,
a dream within itself,
you're hands running down my chest,
I can't help myself,
I can see you,
you inaner me in my dreams,
I breathe the heavy odor,
My clouded heart gleams,
The heart emerges from the deep sea,
you saved it now,
you're body against mine,
I have to abide by the vow.
joy...
I see your face,
a dream within itself,
you're hands running down my chest,
I can't help myself,
I can see you,
you inaner me in my dreams,
I breathe the heavy odor,
My clouded heart gleams,
The heart emerges from the deep sea,
you saved it now,
you're body against mine,
I have to abide by the vow.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Your Downfall
This past weekend I went to the Capitol Center For the Arts in Concord with Tim, Madeline, Bryan, and Caramon. It was amazing to see the stage, fly system, backstage, and other things during the workshop. I had so much fun and will remember it forever. This morning our school had a two hour delay so I got to catch up in my sleep. YEAH! School today was long and annoying thought. NOT YEAH!
You have no right to say anything,
You're more trouble than you're worth,
You have the maturity of a six year old,
You think there is something.
I have no patience now,
I have to put my foot down,
I have no care anymore,
I have to make a vow.
It is time for a change,
It is time for the irritations to end,
It is your downfall,
It is the final moment of the strange.
You have no right to say anything,
You're more trouble than you're worth,
You have the maturity of a six year old,
You think there is something.
I have no patience now,
I have to put my foot down,
I have no care anymore,
I have to make a vow.
It is time for a change,
It is time for the irritations to end,
It is your downfall,
It is the final moment of the strange.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
The Void
I have just finished my poem for English Here it is for your reading pleasure!
The wind was blowing tenderly
down the curving, city street.
She would not have come this way
if she knew who she was about to meet.
She was a very innocent girl.
Her life was going well.
Around her neck she wore a pendant
shaped like a silver bell.
Her mind was filled
with all the highlights of the day.
She didn’t have a care in the world.
Everything was going her way.
She made the winning goal in soccer.
She finally got all “A’s”.
All of these hit her emotions
like warming sun rays.
Nothing would bring her down now.
She was dancing on the clouds.
She walked down the busy path
swerving through all the crowds.
Then she came to a shortcut,
an alley on her right.
On the building wall in the dark cutoff
was an image of a bird taking flight.
This bird was done in graffiti.
Its body was covered in tan fluff.
It seemed to say, “Don’t go down here”
The girl heard that strangely enough.
She ignored the qualm she felt
and turned into the shadowy alley.
Her desire was to be home
so she could call her friend Sally.
As the girl walked she passed
a pile of boxes and trash.
They seemed to tower over the adjacent building.
It was a surprise they didn’t crash.
Then all of a sudden
from the cardboard tower’s behind,
pounced a dark figure
and took her inside.
The figure grunted as it handled
the girl with frightened eyes.
The figure was a man
who disregarded the girl’s cries.
She tried to get away,
from the psychopath in front of her.
Then she noticed a gun hooked on his belt.
Now she felt true horror.
He then clamped onto her hips
with his face pressed against her own.
She was too stunned to scream.
Against her flesh, his hands were cold.
He grabbed her tight jeans
and ripped them to her knees.
He did the same to himself.
Her happiness began to freeze.
She then realized what he was about to do,
and she shrieked bloody murder.
She was terrified, about to be raped,
and he was going to hurt her.
He started to do as she predicted
with his dark, blank eyes piercing her innocence.
He finally got what he wanted.
Her virginity had no defense.
Then he grabbed his gun
and forced it against her neck.
He threatened her, ”Never Tell”!
The girl’s life was now a wreck.
He then took the gun
and with a quick pull
he snapped the “bell” necklace.
Her heart was no longer full.
Ever since the “accident”
she felt like it was her fault.
Instead of her pride growing
it came to a screeching halt.
She felt filthy and used
no matter how many councilors she spoke to.
A void developed inside her.
Her distance from others grew.
She had a hard time trusting men.
She saw them all as trash.
Her world became grey.
It all happened in a flash.
When she grew up
she did live a normal life.
This void still inside her
even when she was a wife.
She would have to find herself again
because of what the man took from her.
Virginity, something your have only one of
was stolen by a worthless cur.
For all of those that this happened to
the battle still can be won.
Even though this became of you
life and happiness is not done.
The wind was blowing tenderly
down the curving, city street.
She would not have come this way
if she knew who she was about to meet.
She was a very innocent girl.
Her life was going well.
Around her neck she wore a pendant
shaped like a silver bell.
Her mind was filled
with all the highlights of the day.
She didn’t have a care in the world.
Everything was going her way.
She made the winning goal in soccer.
She finally got all “A’s”.
All of these hit her emotions
like warming sun rays.
Nothing would bring her down now.
She was dancing on the clouds.
She walked down the busy path
swerving through all the crowds.
Then she came to a shortcut,
an alley on her right.
On the building wall in the dark cutoff
was an image of a bird taking flight.
This bird was done in graffiti.
Its body was covered in tan fluff.
It seemed to say, “Don’t go down here”
The girl heard that strangely enough.
She ignored the qualm she felt
and turned into the shadowy alley.
Her desire was to be home
so she could call her friend Sally.
As the girl walked she passed
a pile of boxes and trash.
They seemed to tower over the adjacent building.
It was a surprise they didn’t crash.
Then all of a sudden
from the cardboard tower’s behind,
pounced a dark figure
and took her inside.
The figure grunted as it handled
the girl with frightened eyes.
The figure was a man
who disregarded the girl’s cries.
She tried to get away,
from the psychopath in front of her.
Then she noticed a gun hooked on his belt.
Now she felt true horror.
He then clamped onto her hips
with his face pressed against her own.
She was too stunned to scream.
Against her flesh, his hands were cold.
He grabbed her tight jeans
and ripped them to her knees.
He did the same to himself.
Her happiness began to freeze.
She then realized what he was about to do,
and she shrieked bloody murder.
She was terrified, about to be raped,
and he was going to hurt her.
He started to do as she predicted
with his dark, blank eyes piercing her innocence.
He finally got what he wanted.
Her virginity had no defense.
Then he grabbed his gun
and forced it against her neck.
He threatened her, ”Never Tell”!
The girl’s life was now a wreck.
He then took the gun
and with a quick pull
he snapped the “bell” necklace.
Her heart was no longer full.
Ever since the “accident”
she felt like it was her fault.
Instead of her pride growing
it came to a screeching halt.
She felt filthy and used
no matter how many councilors she spoke to.
A void developed inside her.
Her distance from others grew.
She had a hard time trusting men.
She saw them all as trash.
Her world became grey.
It all happened in a flash.
When she grew up
she did live a normal life.
This void still inside her
even when she was a wife.
She would have to find herself again
because of what the man took from her.
Virginity, something your have only one of
was stolen by a worthless cur.
For all of those that this happened to
the battle still can be won.
Even though this became of you
life and happiness is not done.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Inner Abyss Of Your Dreams
School today was ok. Nothing really new.
Into the dusk,
find yourself,
release the tension,
over prevention,
You can find the goal,
where your dreams are reality,
the inner abyss,
happiness and bliss,
No one can hold you back,
You need to learn yourself,
better your flaws,
find a cause,
You are your own master,
find yourself a good life,
to never feel again pain,
that inner pouring rain.
Into the dusk,
find yourself,
release the tension,
over prevention,
You can find the goal,
where your dreams are reality,
the inner abyss,
happiness and bliss,
No one can hold you back,
You need to learn yourself,
better your flaws,
find a cause,
You are your own master,
find yourself a good life,
to never feel again pain,
that inner pouring rain.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Not Surprised
This weekend I have watched four movies. For a person that gets antsy after seeing one, it was hard. I was with my friend JP. Movies are an obsession in their house.
People change,
I didn't believe it before,
My eyes have been opened,
I learn the truth more and more,
"You wouldn't ever change",
the words of a ghost,
Now stepping back into darkness,
Taking on a cannibal host,
I have been changed in my theory,
I have seen same person, other mask,
I try to warn with a poem,
"Don't change" all I ask,
I was cheated, but not surprised,
There are no more suprises in these eyes...
People change,
I didn't believe it before,
My eyes have been opened,
I learn the truth more and more,
"You wouldn't ever change",
the words of a ghost,
Now stepping back into darkness,
Taking on a cannibal host,
I have been changed in my theory,
I have seen same person, other mask,
I try to warn with a poem,
"Don't change" all I ask,
I was cheated, but not surprised,
There are no more suprises in these eyes...
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Your Dictating Grace
I went to see King Kong last night and it was a really good movie. Today my parents are going to Maine and I am spending the night at my friend's, JP, house.
When I grow up,
You won't have as much power,
Power you don't deserve,
Your attitude too sour,
I will not be overloaded,
By your dictating grace,
I will someday see you as,
An unworthy face,
Aren't you lucky,
That you don't fight your own battles,
I have to face a monster,
I have to haggle,
I'm sick of this treatment,
I need my space,
You need to back of,
From your dictating grace.
When I grow up,
You won't have as much power,
Power you don't deserve,
Your attitude too sour,
I will not be overloaded,
By your dictating grace,
I will someday see you as,
An unworthy face,
Aren't you lucky,
That you don't fight your own battles,
I have to face a monster,
I have to haggle,
I'm sick of this treatment,
I need my space,
You need to back of,
From your dictating grace.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
I Have...
I have some problems,
I have some advantages,
I have to get a grip,
I have a lot of love,
I have a lot of sorrow,
I have to learn more about life,
I have to stay focused,
I have my doubts,
I have my individuality,
I have my sense of humor,
I have my seldom greed,
I have my "ups" and "downs",
I have my fears,
I have my feelings,
I have my battles,
I have won and lost,
I have my friends and family,
I have my enemies,
I have my strengths and weaknesses,
I have some maturity,
I have a lot to be proud of,
I have my anger,
I have my tears,
I have my darkness,
I have hope,
I have had all of these,
I have a song in my heart that controls or assuages them all...
I have some advantages,
I have to get a grip,
I have a lot of love,
I have a lot of sorrow,
I have to learn more about life,
I have to stay focused,
I have my doubts,
I have my individuality,
I have my sense of humor,
I have my seldom greed,
I have my "ups" and "downs",
I have my fears,
I have my feelings,
I have my battles,
I have won and lost,
I have my friends and family,
I have my enemies,
I have my strengths and weaknesses,
I have some maturity,
I have a lot to be proud of,
I have my anger,
I have my tears,
I have my darkness,
I have hope,
I have had all of these,
I have a song in my heart that controls or assuages them all...
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Without That Pain
Today was ok. I think I need another play badly. My friend Aly wasn't having a good day; I guess her boyfriend was giving her problems.
You think no one out there loves you,
I've been there before,
so haven't a lot of others,
have walked through that door,
its not all that bad,
this life people dream,
I know all you need,
is a good self-esteem,
I write about darkness,
pain in my heart,
but without that pain,
joy wouldn't start,
If we didn't have heartbreak,
abandonment, suffering,
we wouldn't have laughter,
love, giving,
and most of all,
think of those that love you,
when you want to end it all,
think of those who love you.
You think no one out there loves you,
I've been there before,
so haven't a lot of others,
have walked through that door,
its not all that bad,
this life people dream,
I know all you need,
is a good self-esteem,
I write about darkness,
pain in my heart,
but without that pain,
joy wouldn't start,
If we didn't have heartbreak,
abandonment, suffering,
we wouldn't have laughter,
love, giving,
and most of all,
think of those that love you,
when you want to end it all,
think of those who love you.
Monday, January 02, 2006
Sublime
School was really good today! I got a 93 on the big Economics project. IN HIS FACE! I'm exstatic about it and my grade I don't have to worry so much about.
My head is full of stuff,
stuff that needs to be processed,
I have my eyes fall down on me,
when ever i get depresed,
I see all of your life,
through time,
I will see my life change,
My future can be sublime.
My head is full of stuff,
stuff that needs to be processed,
I have my eyes fall down on me,
when ever i get depresed,
I see all of your life,
through time,
I will see my life change,
My future can be sublime.
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