Just Them

Today I went to North Conway with Tim, Martha, and Linda and we went to this awesome Thai restaurant. It was really nice and really good food. I have school tomorrow....joy

With the sun on my face,
and love all around,
not a mention of drama,
not even a sound.
Just a group of people,
that laugh and chat together,
that share there morals and beliefs,
and hope to know each other forever,
Walking around the many places,
looking at new things,
feeling different experiences,
listening as one sings,
then sing along,
even if they are off key,
just enjoying each other's company,
weather, "cool kid", "friend", or "honey".
They might not all be the same,
in every single way,
but there compassion and pure personality,
makes everybody stay,
not to mention the jokes,
laughter, and funny gestures,
that piece into the heart,
like musical measures,
so day are dark and stormy,
and everything seems to go bad,
then you have days with your friends,
and you realized all you are glad you had...
.....and better yet....still have....

This is too all of those I have hung out and been with this weekend you bring me so much that I have....

.....and Linda good luck with you operation

Finally Seeing You

Today I finally hung ouot with Madeline. It was great; we stayed at Dunkin Donuts basically all evening. LAst night I hung out with JP and Chelsea. um......I think I will write now....

Finally seeing you,
After all this time,
I have hung out with you,
it is no way a crime,
I finally sang with you,
are voices harmonized,
I have walked with you,
by true friendship I was mesmorized,
I really love you
as a friend close to me,
I give my luck to you,
to the person you have come to be.

Rearrange

Today was a long, hard day. School went ok; we had a half day. I got my year book and stuff and I had normal classes otherwise. Then I went with Tim and Caramon to work on the moose display. When I came home around 5:30 I arrived to find my poor mother locked out of our house. I went to get a spare key from my dad and then we got in finally around 6:30. Since then I have been waiting to get a call back from my friend Madeline because we were supposed to hang out. I don't know what happened but it has been 4 hours and she is not even home. I hope nothing happened bad.

Were is the love when you need it the most,
the hidden inspiration when haunted by a ghost,
I sit here writing about what I know,
but I didn't know, and it will show,
I thought I had finally made it through,
the haunting past that I knew,
but then with every up there is a down,
every smile becomes eventually a frown,
and ever light eventually fades out,
I thought I never had a doubt,
I call everyone and they are all away,
maybe I'll see them another day,
but I see them everyday, well at least a few,
and slowly they become not what I knew,
Some of them I know care,
but others change from attitude to hair,
all I know is is that I didn't change,
just what I knew began to rearrange,
maybe I did change, that is part of what I know,
I don't know anymore, doesn't it show?

It Comes From The Heart

Tonight was the Berlin High Pops Concert. The art that was displayed was really good. Alex Tichy, one of my classmates had a beautiful colored pencil piece. My friend Danny Leveie (sorry if I spell his last name wrong) had a portfolio of all his artwork that was spectacular! I was blown away and he is going to go really far in art. The concert in the beginning was a little "draggy" , but it really picked up from there. As I write this my heart is still glowing from the music, art , and friends.

Have I forgotten,
how the first chord sounds,
how the drums rattle your core,
into music's grounds,

Have I ignored,
the sound of that voice,
the ring of those piano keys,
my instrument of choice

Have I not noticed,
how many bright hearts,
are my friends and companions,
through all the many parts,

I have missed,
a chance I had,
to get a hold of true passion,
it is very sad.

but now I know,
not to forget,
the love inside the arts,
that I can give out and get.

To those out there,
looking for their art
never give up,
and it comes from the heart.

"When I hear music, I see you"~ When I Hear Music Chorus '06

My Only Goal

Nothing really new.
Band concert is Thursday!

things are starting to rise,
beyond the level I crossed,
when I went down below,
inside darkness' eyes.
that stone gaze,
used to pierce me so,
know I have reflected it,
out of my daze,
I know now I can control,
my own fate,
I know it will be hard,
I know it will take its toll,
but that is my only goal.

Four Sentences

Yestreday I worked on the moose project. Then afterwards I had a nice dinner and watched some movies. I watched a really good Steven King movie called The Langoliers. Tomorrow schhol again.

Behind My Eyes

My heart is beating,
slowly eating,
away at my sanity.
Why is this happening,
sweat drops dripping,
have a lost my honesty,
The phases were said,
and now I'm in bed,
thinking of your demise,
throughout my head,
my patience is dead,
and no one can see behind my eyes,
The words were spoken,
a lovely token,
My nerves are pulsating through my mind.
I know I can be awoken,
I haven't been jokin'
I have it....it to find.

Over Again

I get up,
go to school,
go to work,
go back home,
go to bed,
go to dreams,
go to illusions,
go back to reality,
go to darkness,
get up again,
it starts over again,
go to insanity,
go to mundane,
get up again,
it starts over again.

One To Blame

Today was "crunchy". I worked on the moose diorama I am working on for the ranger station.

You face drives me insane,
All I hear is your name,
Things seem the same,
you are the one to blame,

I just can see
why you like me
My blood will boil free,
It was meant to be

You suck up to everyone,
you act like the sun,
your rays burn my fun,
pain is in anyone,

I dream of your demise,
and dark prize,
for all the hard lies,
and tears in my eyes,

I just want you to go away,
don't come back any other day,
all you want is your way,
I just can't stay,

I know he sees through you,
To what I knew,
you bring me blue,
I just wish I could bid ado,

You make me ill
you are a annoying pill,
Believe me I will,
I just will wait until,

I can strike...

Je Ne Sais Pas Ce Que Je Veux Désormais...

Last night was strike for Natalie. I was both pleasurable and chaotic. I need a vacation though..and fast!

Am I the one,
that is acting like a fool,
the one that everyone complains about,
or was what I thought true,
I don't know what I want anymore

Coeurs d'Amis

Tonight was my induction tot he National Honor Society. I am siked to start my duties and it was a lot of fun seeing all my friends. Saturday is when I am going to see the play and then strike!

"Love can be found in more than just a spouse, but all around in the hearts of your friends and family. Don't take this love for granted, because sometimes it is all you got."

Karma

I know I know I haven't blogged a lot. I have been busy working on the play Nathalie Needs A Nighty all week. It has been an interesting week put it that way. I have my induction to the National Honor Society tomorrow so I'm excited.

Anger begins,
the bad wins,
Dislike turns to hate,
the unknown will create,
attitude shows,
annoyance grows,
hate turns to scorn,
my patience is torn,
comments bleed,
laziness will feed,
scorn turns to loathing,
the plot is unfolding,
now you are down,
broken with your own rage,
loathing turns to satisfaction,
karma always hits with action.

Hormones Make Me Invisible

Today wasn't a very good day. The only really good thing that happened happened last night when I got a letter in the mail. I got excepted into the National Honor Society in the school. I'm really happy about that. Today though was very lackluster and annoying.

You are a good friend
as you lose them one by one.
You drift from them until
all there thoughts of you are done.
All for a lover
that holds you to tight
and no matter what I say
he is all that's in your sight.
I never would have though
that you were one of those
friends that are normal around me
until the thought of a rose,
the presence of hormones,
makes me disappear,
and no matter what I say,
you just don't seem to hear.
Maybe it was just on occasion,
and it will never happen again,
but then I might be wrong,
I never had luck with knowing friends.