When You Must Be

When you know what to do yet fear holds you back

When you crave something and you start to slack

When you open up your heart only to find it dark

When you see a journey and you know you must embark

When you searched for something and it was just a lost cause

When you just go injured and you need a lot of gauze

When you know that you love but it is only one way

When you sitting in your house on a lonely, boring day

When you lost someone close to you and you couldn't do a thing

When you are broken inside and all you can do is sing

When something happens to you where you don't know what to do

When everyone is mad and they seem to blame you

When anything happens to you that may be dark and cold

that is when you must be strong, keep your light on, and be bold

.....Euh......

just got back from a party...really tired now, sorry....

That Unforgiving Night

Yesterday I got my hair cut! It looks short now, which is really different from the long hair before. Then I went with Madeline to good her laundry (I know it is weird) and then we hung out. This morning I hung out with my friends JP and Aly. Tomorrow work and Jp's camp...Now writing

The sky was normal,
full of stars that seemed,
to be the little lights for the sky
when darkness teemed,
it was all normal,
you were doing what's right,
to sneak out the truth,
in that harsh, unforgiving night,
you then found the unreal,
where in your comfort zone,
what you knew to be safety,
maybe even call home,
you then were taken,
away from your child,
in the night with a gun,
that night so terrible, yet mild,
you were then remorsed,
by the souls that you have left,
you were taken away from your own daughter,
as she cries as you left,
now you shall be,
up in that same sky,
that watched down on you,
when you so harshly died.

The One And Only Truth

Today I worked on the set some more. We worked with a new girl named Marissa. She was really good at painting and seem really interested in being an architect. I think it is cool.

It all was perfect,
when you were young,
you had the curiosity,
that would bring you to the change,
then the break happened,
and someone you loved was lost,
then you tried to make a change,
it went feeling wrong,
"for some one to gain
something of equal value must be lost"
you didn't realize that,
a human soul had more than you though,
now you are just trying,
to make things right,
I hope that your journey goes well,
for you both,
"for some one to gain,
something of equal value must be lost,
this was once the worlds one and only truth...

~FMA

Committed

This week I hung out with a lot of people, worked on the play, and other stuff. Tomorrow I am working on the play and a new person, Marisa Heburt, is going to probably work with us.

I feel like I have committed a crime,
throughout the past days,
my heart is aging with time,
I can feel it in many ways,
I feel danger,
and I think it is near,
I feel true anger,
I am trying not to fear...

A View

You drive me insane,
You cause me all this pain,
You have left a memory stain,
You melted our friendship with a acid rain,
but now you want to be,
friends again with me,
you just can't see,
What you did to thee,
Others might hang with you,
I know what I will do,
I have always knew,
now I have a view..

hope

Wrath In A False Laugh

This weekend has been very hectic and hellish in Maine. Must wrote now!

I just know if it is new,
or if it is just the sight through,
a pair of eyes of an different age,
but now I see the darkness,
out of the false happiness,
that keep them together,
They are nice to their faces,
but back stabbing in other places,
quarreling over pity things,
the cheating and envy,
all hidden quietly,
under arrogant jokes,
others take things and use them,
now rusted and abused them,
from a immature neglect,
others ask for favors,
then make mean gestures,
on people who show them only love,
Others cackle and complain,
until it leaves a stain,
in their reputation and character,
all I know is the fighting,
over this stuff is making,
the love melt away,
in the craters of all,
the rusted past against the wall,
where neglect of a man presides,
Anger and wrath,
hidden by a emotion laugh,
will not make that unity that we should have...

Not Anymore

Sorry I have not written in a while. I have been extremely busy with school and now FMA!! Time for writing. 1 and a half days left of school!

The one who didn't want to,
now went all the way,
now the mark is there to stay,
and it is more than just a scratch,
Before I knew you were going through,
something I thought were bad,
the chance that I had,
is now just sadly worthless,
It started when you found,
the drink of the gate,
between the line of regret and hate,
marked heavily by depression,
now you have gone to far,
and now you have crossed some more lines,
and telling more lies,
and can watch anymore,
you are falling,
down a whole of darkness,
I won't let you give in to loneliness,
not anymore...

Self-Return

Today was a hard day.

Am I the only one,
that believes trust must be earned,
that once you lose it,
it is hard to ever get back,
Ever since I was little,
that is what I learned,
then you came along,
I just don't want to tern back,
all your yelling and abuse,
caused my heart to be burned,
I just want you gone,
and for you to give up this act,
you make it seem
that you have learned,
and that you have changed,
but the truth they lack,
now is the time,
I am most concerned,
that you will be there,
forever...and I will lack
self-return

I'm Going Back, But I Am Glad

This weekend I went with Aly to her aunt's house in Massachusetts. I was pretty fun and too many memories to count. When we tried to leave though two of the cars we tried to go home in broke down. Talk to me if you want more info.

Sometimes they say,
that people are meant to meet,
I am glad we have met,
I am glad...
...But now back to reality,
and back to the one I wish I didn't met,
back to where no one cares or listens,
but expects it from you,
and association is close.....Too close....
but then I will have you....
I'm glad I will have you.....
even if you like it too....
I am glad.....

Desiderata

Today was a kind of crunchy, means bad in "Richardisms", day. We read this poem I am going to write down in Health class. It is really good and it is really a wise poem. I need to learn some things from this poem.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

therefore, be at piece with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep piece in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

~Max Ehrmann