Just Stir

What is this feeling
inside of my heart.
I am not sure when it will stop,
or when it did start.
Is it the feeling of rejection,
or being ostracized by your loved ones,
is it the threat of a madman,
who probably has multiple guns.
Is it the plague of hopelessness,
that your life seems trite and gray,
This ineffable feeling,
what it is I just can't say.
I want it to be gone,
and be replaced with unbridled joy,
i am sick of this feeling,
all it does is annoy.
I am sick of everything,
everybody, and every thought,
it seems hard to remember,
how much I have actually got.
No stopping the train,
life goes on,
from each lonely night,
to each painful dawn,
No matter how much better I become,
or how much more I learn,
I can only see a dark day,
with a vase and an earn,
This feeling inside me,
that turns all into a blur,
I'll have to keep fighting,
just move, just stir.