A Grudge Lost In The Ties

"The flowers, the animals, the mountains, reflected all the wisdom of his best hour, as much as they had delighted the simplicity of his childhood." ~Emerson

The quote above is a quote I took from a passage we read in English today; I found connection with its meanings. Life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs lately from all of Christmas vacation to back to school. Everything is everywhere, yet I can't seem to get nowhere. All in all I have a lot of art to do, and a lot of homework so I am just going to continue with the poem.

What is a grudge,
but a memory of the pain,
forgiveness is lost,
all that is left is a stain,
Should people part,
when they don't want to converse,
should they be able to totally separate,
from connection, from this verse,
Why do you involve yourself,
when he only uses you,
yet you are so innocent,
you forgive, you are true,
I probably should forgive,
I just can't seem to forget,
about all the times I forgave,
all the time that I spent,
hurt, anger, forgiveness, repeat,
I did that for so long,
I can not express this any more,
through thesis or through song,
I just want to disconnect,
from the need to forgive,
so I don't have to follow,
the "repeat" direction again; I relive,
you are so innocent
you are so true,
you have given me so much,
what does he have to give you,
I don't want to cut your ties,
I just don't understand,
why after all he has done,
why do you still give him your hand?
What is the difference between being right and a grudge,
why must our past have ties,
what should I do forgive and repeat,
our continue to get these phantom-filthy eyes.
What will happen if I cut these lost ties.